LOVE?

LOVE!
WHAT DO I THINK OF LOVE,WELL I LOVE LOVE,BUT NOT LIKE I DID BACK IN THE DAY I GUESS. SEE IN HIGH SCHOOL,WHEN MY FRIENDS WAS TRYIN TO GET SOME,I WAS DREAMIN OF GETTIN MARRIED AND HAVIN CHILDREN,BUT THE FUNNY THING IS THAT THEY ALL HAVE THIS,AN I'M STILL SINGLE WITH NO CHILDREN. ANYWAY BACK WHEN I DID SOME HOW GOT A GIRL TO TALK TO ME,I'LL RUN THEM AWAY,CUZ I GOT JUST A LITTLE TO LOVE HAPPY WHEN I WAS HOLLAIN,AN LIKE JUST ONE WEEK I'LL BE CALLIN THE HELL OUT THE GIRL AND THINGS LIKE THAT. HEY DON'T GET ME WRONG I TRY TO GET SOME TO JUST LIKE MY FRIENDS,BUT REALLY I DIDN'T GET IT UNTIL LIKE MY TWENTIES. YEAH LOVE WAS SOMETHING I LOVE,SOMETHING I WANTED IN MY LIFE. BUT THEN I GOT IN MY FIRST(AN RIGHT NOW ONLY)REAL RELATIONSHIP,SHE HAD A BABY WHO WAS LIKE SIX MONTHS OLD(NOW SHE IS TWELVE,AN STILL CALLS ME)AN FOR A TIME IT WAS ALL GOOD,I DID WHAT I CAN,AN TRY TO BE WHAT I THOUGHT WAS BEIN A MAN,YOU KNOW LOVE,HELP,AND CARE FOR,BUT AS TIME WHEN ON THINGS START GETTIN BAD WITH US ,BUT LIKE I SAID I'LL GET A LITTLE LOVE HAPPY,AN SO IT BLIND ME FROM THE TRUTH OF HOW BAD OUR RELATIONSHIP HAD GOT ,AN AFTER FIVE YEARS IT WAS OVER. BUT NOT FOR ME,I FELT PLAYED OVER THINGS SHE PUT ME THROUGH,SO MY LOVE CAME DOWN REAL HARD,AN FOR SOMETIME I WENT IN A DEPRESSION,I STOP DRAWIN & WRITEIN LYRICS AND OTHER STUFF I'M NOT GOIN TO TALK ABOUT,CUZ IT'S NOW THE PAST. NOW I'M NOT REALLY LOOKIN FOR LOVE(FRIENDS & FUN),OK MAY BE I'M STILL LOOKIN FOR IT,BUT NOW I'M VERY SUSPICIOUS OF A WOMAN WHEN I MEET THEM,SO NOW I'M NOT RUNNIN IN TO THINGS LIKE THAT NO MORE, FEEL ALOT BETTER TO ME,AN I DON'T WANT A WOMAN WALKIN BEHIND ME OR AN FRONT OF ME,BUT ON MY SIDE,WITH RESPECT FOR ME AND RESPECT FOR HER,CUZ I THINK TRUE LOVE IS MUCH BETTER WHEN IT DEVELOPS SLOWLY..........BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL!